Wednesday, April 19, 2006
my melbourne trip was superb...thanx a lot non....
well besides that i did a bit of reflecting on my life when i travel from one end to the other end alone in melbourne (non was schooling so its ok....)
before i go on i tink u guys shld noe abt me and S....dis happen before i went aussie....crap sia....my reflection works n tts y i had a clearer mind n noe wat 2 do wif my so-called relationship wif S after i came back...
ladies b prepared...nisa esp if she is reading dis....
tings go on lyk dis:-
We kissed n tings got hanky panky..he got all touchy and all....the first tym he did tt i was LYK FUCK!!STOP IT SIA...n he did....i told him tts not wat i want tt will only happen when im married.....the 2nd time he did tt was the week b4 i left for mel....i leave everyting 2 ur imagination ya...haha n NO WE DID NOT FUCK!!! still a pure virgin....:)
i din told u guys when i met u all coz i feel so ashamed of myself sia,feel like a slut n shitty,tts y im always not in a gd mood....n i knew den dis fella is sick....even b4 u ladies told me to let him go n i deserve sum1 betta i already noe all tt but i told myself he will change n hes not like tt...
but after my trip i noe what i shld do next...2 let him go.....i haf to....its abt tym....
i told nisa i noe wat i want but gosh i was surprised when she said berani buat berani tanggung...i din say hes the one tt i want,i nd....hell ya hes not....
the ting tts bothering me now is....if i told him we r nvr an item n haf to let go now...i dun want him to blame my frenz...K and partner....n i haf a feeling he is so capable of twisting stories.....men!! not all men but most men r gd at tt...making we ladies the bad person desperate one.....shit sia!! i wana meet him(but tym does not permit) to tell him tt we haf to go separate ways but b4 i did nd n answer frm him....but wateva answer hes giving me,im gona hang on to my decision....sori i cant go on wif him....
well i nd help from u guys on dis....i nak hit him on the face but not touching him (u noe wat i mean??)...2 leave him lyk a sophisticated n educated lady....not like a slut,bitch or a sore loser....
sorry 2 tell dis to u guys a bit later....but i so believe its abt tym i told my angels....go on scold me...scream at me....slap me...but all i do noe I LOVE ALL OF YOU.....n u guys gona b rite beside me.....
Makin Menjadi merapekz @
4/19/2006 12:34:00 PM
5 Comments:
At 4/19/2006 01:50:00 PM,
.::.serendipity.::. said…
hey ita, im glad u told us abt this n im sure it took a lot of courage to be honest and open up abt what had happened..abt the kissing n hanky-panky stuff, im sure it was at the spur of the moment thingy..but im glad u came to ur senses after that, telling him to stop n all..we all make mistakes ita, n dats how we learn..
i hope u'll be strong n hold on firmly to ur stands..coz at the end of the day, what we want is a guy who can protect and respect us as a woman..
lastly, dun blame urself for what happen..u noe u have us for moral n emotional support..love u loads girl!!
At 4/19/2006 02:31:00 PM,
Makin Menjadi said…
Ita, I want u to be clear that your girlfriends r not judgemental.We do not judge u based on the mistakes tt u've done .In our eyes, u're still the same Ita afterall . Bear in mind sweetie no humans r infallible.We fall n stumble but more imptly how u pick up the broken pieces n march forward in life .Its a learning experience .Hats off to u my dear for being so honest n sincere with us .Trully appreciate that.N no worries about him blaming me n Anuar.I dun care .Even if he does , i'll gif him rite at his face.N the gracious way to end this game as a sophiscated n educated lady is to be upfront with him...Meet him in person ...I agree with Mama..Dun blame urself..We're all behind u..Love u to pieces my dear ...
At 4/19/2006 05:15:00 PM,
let.me.fart said…
they have spoken. What matters is how you pick yourself up and deal with it.And U are already on your way by arriving to that decision. We'll be there, don't you worry.
Let's see the good guys population chart. Take away the gays, the attached, the attached who are actually gays...yeah. There should be one left for you. He's no loss. May his fidgety hands/dick lose its sensation and break out in nasty rash whenever under uncontrollable hormonal influence, when in contact with the opposite sex.
At 4/19/2006 06:32:00 PM,
NikeSweet said…
well ita.. im nt actually surprised that u didnt noe how to tell this to us... but hey.. if u never did.. its still alright.. we still love ya!!!.. ;)
i guess there is no "best" way to break up with someone.. no matter how u do it, you'll think abt it 5 years down the road n prob change this n that.. who hasnt?? im sure u noe we're always there behind u every step of the way.. dont let him control u.. take control of the situation & be brave my dearest ita.. so what if he blames ur frens n twist the story ard.. it jus makes him a sore loser.. take time to think it thru before going abt doing it.. i guess when u are ready to say wat u want to say.. make sure its ur decision n urs alone that he wants to hear.. dont compare.. dont judge.. tell him wat u really want n he'll eventually go away.. *cross fingers*
At 4/19/2006 09:50:00 PM,
Makin Menjadi said…
thank you for everything man...love u guys lots....if he is playing games with me i tink i will also...gd luck to him coz he has step of my tail....dis leo will scratch him like mad...but slowly but painfully....:)
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