Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Hey girls, how r u all doing? Anyway, im was not MIA la..Cuma bertapa kat dlm gua je..haha well as u know, im having my term break now..starting on my assignments and projects already
And for those of you who recently viewed my friendster profile (ain and kisha done that..), you might have noticed that I changed my status to ‘Single’ and removed the photos with Nasz in it.. actually that was just to attract more guys to get to know me la..mcm time dulu2..hehe
Or probably not.
I broke up with Nasz..and that’s for real..i aint kiddng now..well that decision was a tough one for me n also for him..Actually, I was the one who asked for the break-up and he finally relented. Wanted to tell u guys about this in person but I doubt we’re meeting up anytime soon with everybody’s hectic lives..so sebelum the cerita dah basi, might as well I tell abt it now..and its also for the benefit of Non who’s far away now..
If you’re wondering how im feeling aboutt it, well I would say it was hard initially..im sure I cried a lot..cos my eyes were stinging for quite some time due to the crying..but now, im more in control of it.. my elder bro was there to comfort me..he said the news was really unexpected..since he’s the first person to know that I was attached, I thought its only fair to him to be the first person to find out about the break-up too..
So u may ask why we broke up? I’ve been quite depressed about our relationship for quite some time..with him busy with his work and family, he hardly have any time for me..im considered lucky if I get to meet him once a week..sometimes I dun get to see him for two straight weeks..and we also dont talk much on the fone too..most of the time, we rely on smses, which to me was not enough.. then he told me he started on this sideline job with his frens and represented his company for soccer..the latter means he needs to commit to weekly trainings..as much as I want to be supportive of his decisions and activities, to me, it only means that I’ll have lesser time with him..
I guess I underestimated myself..i thought I was the kind who dont need my bf to be there for me most of the time..I was wrong!..as tough as I can be, im no miss independent when it comes to guys..it seems that he cant provide with what I need at the moment..I hope you guys dun picture the situation in such a way that everything is about ME!..im nt being selfish la..but I deserve to be happy..and I dont wanna feel depressed about this all the time.
With that, I told myself the only way to stop feeling like that is to have no strings attached.. that way, I dont need to feel so down about us, and its for his own good too..i pity him having to put up with my stupid mood swings all the time..
Nevertheless, im glad to say that me and nasz are still on good terms..guess we both know that we still love each other..Cuma keadaan tak mengizinkan both of us to keep on with the relationship..im nt denying the chances of us getting back together in the future once everything simmer down..furthermore, we broke up on a mutual basis..so the tendency to patch things up n call off the break up is there..but I told myself not to let my emotions to be easily swayed..anyways, we’ll see how things are ..insya’allah, kalau dah memang our jodoh, takkan ke mana rite? We can only plan, but Tuhan yang menentukan our plans..
I hope this long entry is enough to compensate my lack of contribution to this blog! hehe
.::.serendipity.::. merapekz @
2/21/2006 03:52:00 PM
6 Comments:
At 2/22/2006 04:43:00 AM,
NikeSweet said…
NO! Of course its not enough to compensate your lack of contribution!!! hehe..
Anyway, im sorry to hear about the breakup. Well you are right, you should be happy being in a relationship not depressed about being in one.
I hope things work out for the best for you.. Anyway, which club are you gonna join?
- The "im single n wanna date club?"
- The "im single & stay away from me club"
- The "im dating club"
Well since u just got out off this club, you'll prob not getting in it anytime soon... "i have a boyfriend" club.
At 2/22/2006 04:44:00 AM,
NikeSweet said…
hehe.. k take care of urself..
u noe u can talk to me!!! *Hugs*
At 2/22/2006 10:31:00 AM,
let.me.fart said…
hey hey. Non, pandai bukak kelab kelab eh.. What's next? kelab dangdut?
Yalor, at the end of the day, it should be about your happiness what..
Selfish? to a certain extent. You've got to think for yourself also.
Anyhoos, hope you are feeling better. Don't kill yourself.
I mean not kill as in Kill Bill. More like u know road runner and the coyote. What I mean is don't get too depressed. A little depress is fine.
Like suddenly your life is like in the movies- with a sad background song.
Ok I think you get what I mean. I hope so.
At 2/22/2006 12:06:00 PM,
.::.serendipity.::. said…
well rite now, i think i'll join the "im single & stay away fr me club" im definitely nt in the 'searching for another guy' mode..hehe
and dun worry, i wont kill myself, neither kill bill style nor road runner style..life has to go on wat, though the depression part is there la..
nevertheless, thanks for the encouragement gerls..muacks!
At 2/22/2006 07:30:00 PM,
Makin Menjadi said…
Ola sweethearts ...Im sorry to hear whatever tt has happen ..Mariana, I blif things can still work out betw the both of u ..More imptly u guys end it on a good note ..N Mariana, rest assured tt u can depend on us no matter what happens ..True friends r there to help u pull thru ur doldrums of life =) Lets go gallivanting soon yah ...
At 2/22/2006 09:27:00 PM,
.::.serendipity.::. said…
sape ah yg wrote the last comment? kisha isit? wah lau, e way u write ah, mcm tulis testimonial seh..n i dun mean those friendster testimonials..its one of those formal testi after we graduate fr sch..hehe cos u wrote, "mariana,....bla3"
aniwaes, thks for the console ya.. truly appreciate it!
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